hen yu men di ying lai le zhou mo.. zhen de bu xiang zai yong english xie dong xi le... gan jue hen weird...

 

but i know it would be pretty difficult for u readers to get it. anyway, i will continue..

 

weekends do not always welcome good news. first of all, i got my thinkpad order cancelled this morning. they said they don't accept international credit card.. fuck man...

 

and second, the aisan retreat i attended last night was so boring.. they were all aisan americans, who can all speak pretty fluent english, but few of them can say in their real mother tongue.. i didn't feel fit in. but anyway, i got to know a lot of friends there, from all over aisa.. it was pretty good..

 

and then, i got my ankle sprained when i played basketball here.. it was the first time i played b-ball in the US, with white guys. and i m not like moving slowly down the stairs. oh gosh...

 

so much reading and laudary to do today.. they will have a party tonight but i don't think i ll go.

 

keep in mind you guys that do not drink too much alcohol in college... never forget about this..

 

oh god.. i need a laptop.. i hate typing in english all the time..

not totally messed up.. but it's obviously that i need so badly to improve my language skills..

 

the engineering stuff is simple.. it only is when i look over the text again after class, but wasn't when i was working in a group..

 

yeah. that's the problem i've got to face.

 

and, the good thing is, i tried football today, and it's really big fun!! i ll try to play section football this year~

 

woow.. the past 8 days were like a month, which past really really slow.. tons of things everything, numerous of assignments to deal with every night, life suddenly becomes meanful..

 

yeah... cheer..

what can i say??

 

cest la vie.

this is life.

 

i'm deserved to be disappoited. i know that, obviously.

 

but no matter how tough it can be, there will be a solution.

 

and i have you guys around me spiritually, even we can be thousands of miles apart.

 

i ll learn to face it, alone.

today is the last day of the orientation. for these several days, i came to learn a little bit about this college, this nation, and people here. i find that everyone is indeed first time in college and facing a fresh new life. everyone can be making mistakes in the first few days, feeling awkward in weird crowd, and excited by all kinds of college or dorm activities. all of us are fitting in and getting to know people around. and i'm simply one of them. so there's just nothing that seems too difficult to get through.

 

now i still want to mention the conservative notre dame stuff. just now i took a lecture called HOOK-UP, ALCOHOL AND SEXCUAL ASSAULT AT NOTRE DAME. upperclassmen gave speeches about what this HOOK-UP CULTURE campus is like and what we should be cautious with. casual sex happens in every college in the US, including notre dame. and people here tend to stress this issue, aiming to let us aware of those potential dangers lying upon for both boys and girls. they mentioned rapes, sexual assaults, crimes, and everything that r realistic in society. as for these topics, they seem to have been ignored in china, that nobody want to mention them publicly, feeling shame and uneasy to say them aloud. but things are totally different here. dangers do lie upon us, and why don't we choose to face it, instead of letting it go... well, notre dame is conservative, compared to some other schools in the country, spiritually and socially, but when it comes to some really realistic issues, it's responsible and foreseeing. i think this is how american institutions distinguish.

 

classes begin tomorrow, and i will never have such time to sit down for a while, take a moment to organize experience in a day, and put it down. life will be busier and more challenging soon.....

 

it's now a small break between last activity and dinner, and i rushed out of dorm to here, the library, to record sth. down.

 

i went to a catholic mass today. it's not in the basilica of sacred heart, one of the greatest churches in the nation. but anyway, it's fresh new to me and everything is interesting. they sing gospel songs and pray, once and once agaiin, and finally those rectors or say, fathers, give sth. to eat to the audience, if he or she is a believer. everybody goes to the front to receive this stuff. it's like a piece of fried patato, but it's not definitely. I'm not a believer so i just goes up and cross my arms in front of me, and the president of the university touched me lightly on the head, and whispered sth. like god bless you my child.  all in all, it's interesting and i'm gonna take another mass next sunday in that basilica. by the way, catholic songs are really beautiful. try some if you guys have time.

 

the marching band in notre dame is really famous in the nation, and everyone here is so proud of it that we applaud really hard when they play. i love those songs and cannot help sing together with them, standing among enthusiastc crowd. they are really famous here, like notre dame victory song and our alma mater, that everybody can sing them. we also have special ways to go football cheers. it's really interesting and i'm gonna explain them in chinese later when i get my laptop.

 

some girls here r just pretty, and dorms often hold big events to let boys and girls from different dorms to hang out together, walking, chatting, eating, or simply just staying together. so if anyone who's concerning that if notre dame is too conservative, i'd say, don't worry about it. as long as you can make yourself understood by the other sex, you can definitely make it.

 

there are just so few asians throughout campus that it's often kinda strange hanging out with other people. the good thing is that i have a guy from shenzhen downstairs and i can talk with him when i feel i 'm not fitting in. my roommate is nice, really nice. we talked last night for two hours, with another guy in another room. we mentioned everything, from communism to shakespeare, air force to chinese food, anything and everything. i'm feeling like i can understand what they r talking about a little bit. i'm learing the language, and it's improving. hopefully it's a nice start.

 

woow, i'm so proud of the speed i type... just 5 minutes passed... i'm gonna leave some time for my emails...

 

oh almost forget, i didn't bring the camera with me. i m gonna buy a new camera here, after i get my first salary. btw, do you guys need a job before applying for SSN?

uhm.. mercury i missed ur comment to my last entry... u know i can only check my space and email every time i drop by computer clusters.. it's fxxxxx busy here..

 

as for the mac machine, ND sells an ordinary mac at 1200, but it goes up high to 1600 for macbook pro.. my rommate has one mac pro and i used it last night. it was WONDERFUL and i suggest u to buy a pro even if it's expensive, since you are gonna do the graphics stuff, which requires high quality operating machine.

 

that's it. going for dinner now.. computers here are really fast!!

i didn't bring a laptop with me. not bad not good-- extremely not convenient at Notre Dame where prompt emails come in every minute, while thinkpads are sold at an incredible low price. I'll have my own computer next month.

 

The orientation yesterday is excellent. People here are nice and friendly. They offer all kinds of help. Korea has the greatest number of int'l students at a figure of 22, while we are the 2nd -- said to be 11, though I have only met 6 so far. No people here treat me like I have just been here for less than 50 hrs; they thought I have no problem talking with them at all, and speak really fast. This causes some problem during orientation info sessions -- I missed sth.

 

We guys played poll last night at dorm. The facility is really good, and I bet I will be a prof when I m back in China~~ hoho

 

Classes are not going on yet. I'm looking on my class scheule and requirements. It'll be a busy day at the library, in front of this Mac.

 

Miss you guys.

八月中旬的北京 难得的凉爽 恰逢我刚刚到达这里

三个人 六个包 四天时间

忙活了两天 突然闲下来却不知道要做什么

今天跑马拉松 车是单号的 只有地铁是真正valid的交通工具 索性就呆在家 闷着上网 看电视 一个人呆呆地想象着未来的两周将是怎样度过

 

打心底感叹这真是难得的惬意

远离了家 远离了熟悉的人们 远离了过去的一切

过去的恍惚的一年 留给我太多 让我记下的太少

我不记得自己当初怎样熬夜 怎样学习 怎样努力 怎样奋斗

只记起如何失落 如何怅惘 如何在得知分数不好和得到第一个reject之后险些一蹶不振

而现在，所有的这些 都已是过去时

 

还有什么让我遗憾的呢

从来没有抱定决心去追求什么

喜欢随遇而安 习惯目光短浅地生活

我不知道命运为什么对我这样

 

曾经想象过无数次的瞬间马上就要到来了

而不久之前 这只还是梦

我始终相信

命运在给自己关上一道门的时候 还会打开一扇窗

其实 有时候自己心情不好 只不过是没找到窗子在哪儿而已

静下心来 细心留意 这扇窗总会出现

 

我想我真的是闲的无聊了 写些这些无厘头的东西

还是收拾东西去看马拉松好了

 

最后说一句

北京好漂亮！！

都走了.

只差我一个.

今晚启程.

祝我一路顺风.

 

从今天起,翻开新的一页,对过去说再见.

 

 

没有再见,就没有新的相遇.

 

Farewell....

身份证丢了

在我要汇学费的前一天

在我要看球赛的前5天

在我要去北京的前一周

 

这就是命运

 

明天去补办加急 或许可以弥补一点

八月 离别之际   少不了伤感 

 

明天冷就要走了 然后8日是帆

 

时间从不停下脚步 很快地 我也要离开了

 

千言万语 凝缩成二字 珍重